The Broken Mirror

So, i'm truly alone.  

i was born alone so why did i think life would be different.

people who are supposed to love and care about me are the ones who have left and isolated me.

friends who are supposed to be there no matter what, are the ones ignoring my cries of help.

alone. 

such a simple word, yet the one word that describes this pain the most.

this pain of abandonment. 

this pain of regret.

this pain of the lost i feel in my heart.

alone.

some may say i brought this upon myself.

then again maybe i did.

i caused my own loneliness by making my feelings heard.

by making sure that for once in my entire life, my voice was heard.

even above the wails of my subconscious screaming no, i was heard.

even if what i said was not something i should have said, i was heard.

loud and clear.

i am taking my things and leaving.

that's exactly what i said.

who knows if i would have said those exact words if i knew what lay ahead of me.

i know, i would have.

i know this because there is no way that i will let this unfortunate event get the best of me.

i will not speak.

i will not think.

i will just move forward.

i will make sure that my life does not become what they predicted.

that i will make sure that i am of worth.

that i become someone who i am proud of.

then, and only then will i be able to say, thank you.

thank you for leaving me.

thank you for helping me to love myself more than you love me.

thank you for showing me that i can do anything.

i can achieve anything.

alone.

without you.

thank you for this unfortunate event that has shaped my life.

my life that i now adore.

thank you for not caring enough.

because now i care soo much.

thank you for that unfortunate event that showed me that i don't need you.

that i don't need to rely on you.

that i can rely on myself.

now i know.

that's what i will say.

that's what i will say when i've made it.

when i've made it alone.

alone.

who ever said alone was unfortunate.

a weakness.

well i will make this weakness my strength.

because you shattered a broken mirror.

i will make the glue to put it back together again.

Txx