Remember me...

Its crazy how much I want you to call.
How much I want to hear your voice.
To hear you say how proud you are of me.
How much you love me.
How much you want me to succeed.

But we both know that is far from reality.
That is far from what you are going to do.

To you I might aswel be a stranger.
I might aswel be someone that has no importance to you.
Because that is exactly how I feel.

You don't care about me.
I scares me to think that you never have.
And that maybe you never will.


Its a sad thought really.
How someone who is supposed to be the most important person in my life has become the one who just couldn't care less.

That bond.
I envy my friends who have that in their lives.
The bond I crave to have with you.
The bond that would make everything feel good again.

It scares me.
Scares me to think that this could be it.
That this could be life for me now.

Is this what I really want?
Is this how I want things to be?

I have no idea.
No idea whatsoever.

All I know is that im not going to sit here and feel sorry for myself.
Feel sad that I don't have you in my life anymore.

No!

Im gonna get up and excel in everything I do.
I will win in life.

And someday I will make sure that my child does not ever feel this way.
Because I will care.
And I will love.
And I will be proud of my life.
Thats all that I can do.

I really do love you.
And I hope that one day i can just tell you all my feelings face to face.

But until then, This will do.

Txx